Well Hello Good Friends....

I have not taken the time to write in this in a long time...

Mainly because time has not been on my side...

Finals where quite stressful... well not quite ... lets try majorly stressful...

this is the first time that i basically went radio silent for about 3 weeks an occasional text but no calls in or out... 

Towards the end of the finals i was going on about a weeks worth of not sleeping...

This caused me to not be fully aware of what i was doing and slice into my finger with a box-cutter... it was nothing major but still it hurt like hell...

I do have to say I did have a breakdown which had to do mostly with the not sleeping part and the amount of work that had to be done but also because I saw how a friendship could switch in an instant... A few things stood out about that..  

I have become aware of a few things...

Let us start with the negative...

1 - I am a terrible writer... Writing Papers are terrible for me.. 

2 - I have been pushing people that i like away... not on purpose of course... Those connections are not there anymore...

3 - The lack of sleep is taking a toll on my health which with the sleep sucks anyways...

4 - I noticed a few things at the family reunion and at the christmas family get togethers i did not like... but that is a whole new post....

5 - my car wobbles

- And let us end with the possitive! -

1 - I think I am going somewhere in life

2 - I am happy with what i am working towards

3 - I love working with graphics

4 - I have a plan.

5 - I got a 95% on a paper!

6 - I think i am getting over somepeoples

7 - My dad seems happy... which makes me happy...

More Saw Movies to come...

Alright so this is long over due but it is getting done....

-SAW V-

I do have to say that i was one of the people that was very disappointed with Saw IV. Although i think that the problem with the movie was not how it was made. The problem was how long it was between the views of the films. I was amazingly confused when i watched Saw IV but after watching Saw III then Saw IV it made complete sense although it still was not my favorite but it was still good.

Saw V delivers...

although you can tell that the writers are running out of traps to put people in... they still do a great job of putting things together... at first I was a little skeptical of them bringing in another apprentice to jigsaw.. but the writers did a great job on how they continue. There are still a lot of questions that are left unanswered, BUT not so many that makes the viewer want to find the viewers and stab them because of the cliff hanger. So all in all it was a great movie i think it is good to watch the Saw 3-5 one right after the other.. to get the full effect and to get everything...

I give it a thumbs up...

The Weekend

This weekend was interesting... 

I actually got sleep which is great!

I still am going to the docs about what is the deal with the not sleeping thing... in Dec.

So maybe i can hibernate???

Friday the halloween...

didnt dress up... but went to a party later....

half the night was working on homework which is boring as hell thanks to ART HISTORY!

ehh... it is sorta interesting sometimes....

ended up getting hit at THE BEST taco bell Run EVER haha... ya...

but it was all good... not a lot of damage done to the car at all just some scratches... i was sorta mad after because i was just sitting there and got hit in the back... but whatevs....

was at my dads basically for the weekend... worked with him and whatnot.. 

then had a day of SAW....

I already watched 1 and 2 the week before but on sunday it was

SAW 3

SAW 4

and then went to the 11:00 showing at AMC forum 30  of SAW 5 or if you want to get technical SAW V.

I will post a review in another entry....

today i worked on more homework and helped a little making carmel corn then went to the ER and spent an hour there

nothin major i just hurt the same ankle i fell on a year ago next month...

i really have good luck with that.. hahaha

but ya...  at most i might have muscle damage... but whatevs.. ha...

so all in all it was a pretty alright weekend... I do have to say that SAW SATURDAY made the weekend.

Rubber Ducky

Over and Out.

Yet Another Sleepless Night....

A short update...

Starting another week with no sleep...

This weekend was very very relaxing...

had the whole houses to myself... 

just basically relaxed all weekend...

nice...

The Talkative Stage...

I am very talkative tonight...

-I am in one of the talkative stages- 

(I am sorta getting the pattern down)

Well... 

Just got finished with my first set of three classes at SH.

Although i had to pull an all nighter to finish m gradient project 

because gradient is a major BEEEOTCH!!

It sorta worries me that i am not tired... 

Tuesday night I got to bed around 430 and had a restless sleep until 6...

when i finally somewhat fall asleep my alarm goes off at 7:15.. So Then the work...

then after work worked on the gradient project.. then before i knew it it was 8

mom woke up by me printing off my project... so we had breakfast...

Then I basically wasted time until school and then... school and now...

abouts 1230... I should be falling asleep in the middle of writing this sentence shouldn't i?

Being up and working on the project was a lot...

But I love it!

I love working with the picture... seeing what i could make from a blank illustrator doc.

Time went by so fast when i was working on the project... I can honestly say that I love it...

so in conclusion...

I am at ease with some of the things in my life...

I feel that for the first time in a long time I feel like I am going toward something...

even if that something for right now is going back to another school after the year...

I have somewhat of a plan...

i just wish there was someone to share the experience with...

"Man I Love Being A Turtle!"

So I watched the First Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle Movie again this weekend...

The Scoop...

When i was a wee little one (Back in the Day) that use to be one of my favorite movie

The Deal...

It was actually a somewhat good movie...

ya know how sometimes you remember a great movie that you loved when you were a little kid, then you watch it when you get older and you are like "DEAR GOD that movie Sucked!"

The live action TMNT movies are still pretty amazing...

i mean it made me laugh a few times and it was still good...

I mean i am not saying it is the best movie ever since it is about a giant rat and turtles that are ninjas! which by the way is pretty amazing ... but still anywho!!!

anyways.. this weekend was all good...

closed the house hung out with my dad... watched some old movies... 

and painted... can not go wrong with that...

By the way::::

New movie Review:

Max Paine:

I am going to say it was in between a bad movie and an Okay movie...

some of the frames in the movie looked amazing... 

looked like a comic book era movie... 

but the story...

and what was with the demon angels being like "AHHH i am going to get you or Am i"

"I think that i will just stand there and give you the silent treatment and the stink eye."

anyways i will give it an ok for a Rental.

Until Next Time...

"COWABUNGA!"

Lack of Sleep

So to be perfectly honest right now...

I have reached my breaking point...

not like breakdown or anything like that but energy wise...

As of right now i am running on an hour and a half of sleep...

which is okay..

I have gone on with less... 

but the past weeks not being able to sleep until around 4:00 am.

Then having to get up for work the next morning working the whole shift going home working on homework then doing it all over again... The disease in which i call tiredness creeps up on you...

There is usually a point every once and a while that your mind starts to slow...

it is harder to focus on certain things...

In a sense you hit a wall...

you feel the effects of the lack of sleep all at once... you feel like the joker in the edgar allan poe story being inclosed in the wall... being overwhelmed with the effects,

in a way feeling trapped.

The longest i have gone on without sleep was one summer went almost a full work week...

it was about 4-5 days or so...

It was scary to be honest....

I started seeing a few things that were not there and it took me out for about a day...

but again... it creeps up and just takes over.

when i get extremely tired i sleep with my eyes open...

weird ... yes, i know...

there are pictures somewhere of the event... i did not believe it either...

eh i feel tonight will be another restless night...

"We imagine we are climbing; every step is about 20cm high, terribly exhausting and where does it get us? Nowhere; we don’t get one step further or higher. Descending, rolling downwards deliciously, doesn’t work for us either."

The Big Papa D

I was sitting with my papa today and i realize... 

this is something that i am going to remember for the rest of my life...

Just Sitting visiting with my papa...

Visiting and listening to some of the stories about how one summer he was approached to join the mafia.... nothing like the movies... they wanted him to clean small amounts of money for protection and  a cash bonus every once and a while.  He declined of course. he didn't want anything to do with that and he knew the rules. Once you are in you are in for life.

He knew a few people that were involved with the mafia apparently... One friend he was really close to... ended up buying out some businesses and whatnot with some help of the mafia...  This of course was way back... He later met up with the friend at a funeral later in life and was sorta shocked to find him carrying but he realized it made sense. He didnt want to have to live like that... So he tried to stay clear of that.  

I will always remember these stories... 

i shouldnt really say i will always remember the stories but i will always remember the little times that i have had with my papa...

The first time cigar i ever smoked.

The first beer I ever had... (if you know me : beer is not my thing)

Was all with my papa sitting and talking by the river fishing in the summer watching the sun slowly go down. Swatting the flies that bit.  Going to Edelwieses (The Local Pub) to just relax before we went back.  Me with my coke and my papa with his beer talking to the bar tender. Seeing who comes in and there and always having  some story to tell about a fun time in the early days.   Sometimes he would give me a few quarters to play pinball or i would play a game of pool with someone that was cool with a kid in a bar. (mind you it was is a small town, everyone knew everyone)

Smelling the smell of wood in his garage as the table saw cut a piece of wood that would be turned into a nice box or some other form of nice woodwork.

I will always remember these...

He is a  good man.

Welcome

Well Hello and Welcome to my Blog... 

Just thought that i would drop in and say a little something to welcome you, the many thousands and thousands of readers who will tune in daily to see the happenings of someone in the world! haha... ya... 

I really should be working on a project that is due on thursday...

-So-

Thought that i would make this short.... 

Next Entry will be longer and have more substance...

Consider this your appetizer....

-G